得罪别人就是难哎
对不起啦
30.12.07
26.12.07
maturity
sheesshh, maturity kills cuteness.
but this girl, damn was she mature for a 13 year old.
freaks me off still, and makes me depressed for being such a kiddo at that age.
sienzz...
but this girl, damn was she mature for a 13 year old.
freaks me off still, and makes me depressed for being such a kiddo at that age.
sienzz...
15.12.07
audiophile
my soundblaster audigy software is back online wakakakakakakakkakakaka!!!
sadly can't reformat my lappie as frequent as i wanted anymore. 2 more activations left. sobzzz
BUT
it's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gagagagawemwahahahhahaawoeeeeeeeeeeee
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
p/s: odin sphere (ps2) is a nice game with damn nice graphics.
sadly can't reformat my lappie as frequent as i wanted anymore. 2 more activations left. sobzzz
BUT
it's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gagagagawemwahahahhahaawoeeeeeeeeeeee
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
p/s: odin sphere (ps2) is a nice game with damn nice graphics.
14.12.07
12.12.07
160GB of stuff
yeah life was easy going. definitely unlike the life in singapore but it's not really that good afterall. something's missing i guess. work work and work. stupid staff left everything undone and unexplained. show some uniformity and standard at least okay? other than that, it's all catching up with friends. met chun wei just now, and transfered some *things*. the songs by mika is nice, and so are the final fantasy songs.
speaking of songs, it brings back memories. it's like it's able to encapsulize a particular timeframe of your life. i've verified this too. if you spend enough time for a period listening to a particular collection of songs, then you dis-listen them for a long time, and re-listen again, yeah it does bring back memories. and memories, that's what makes individuals unique. future actions are actually dependent on past events. while there may be better paths to thread upon, be grateful of what you have now. we're not the best, but we're not the worst off either. if you're feeling down, remember that there's always some hope out there, albeit little and tiny, and it's composed of different forms, be it music, picture, a single word, a person, and so on so forth. for me it's mostly music (i'm an audiophile) so yeah i hate noise and love it at the same time. something like wave-particle duality theory.
okay back to story, he's the gang of best friend in form4, along with wee ping, daniel etc etc (the etcs sound weird =p). yeah those were good times. fooled around too much but heck was it fun. first hour of the school day is still sleeping hour. and the funny mr. chua of additional maths. "siapa boleh berdiri? hanya aku saja yang boleh" wth lar hahaha.
and the scouts. damn were they having fun. again mom didn't allow me to go this time around. sigh. nothing can be done about that. but other than that i went to school today so saw them. ahh the nostalgia embraced me. and mocked me too dammit. either way i hope i can join them more. hopefully. music camp was down i heard, damn sad. please larrr... i so wanna go join them. boohoo. at least the place, the organization, the people there, everyone, everything, they gave my a sense of belonging. nostalgic stuff again. hehehe.
so yeah that's all. oh and i'm gonna update my lappie HDD to 160GB. hope it's worth it.
on other unrelated news, puberty was late.
and one girl went MIA. i sense some similarity between me and her. and makes me wonder whether those days were really our firsts... sigh i was a real failure back then; not that it's alot different from now. just wanna say sorry to the two girls that i've hurted so much.
long hair. hahaha i now have the longest hair i ever had in my whole life. gonna trim it abit at the saloon before reunion dinner next tuesday. and add abit of red highlighting to make it look, not to say cool, but at least the way i wanted it to be. now it's abit red cuz of previous black colour fading. come to think bout it, changing appearance does cost damn lot. just ask the girls, and some boys. also i so wanted an asian mullet. looks damn nice. like this one: http://www.oneinchpunch.net/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2007/09/asian-mullet.jpg hahaha.
and square enix (it was square soft back then), people who worked there, T.H.E.Y. A.R.E. G.O.D.
speaking of songs, it brings back memories. it's like it's able to encapsulize a particular timeframe of your life. i've verified this too. if you spend enough time for a period listening to a particular collection of songs, then you dis-listen them for a long time, and re-listen again, yeah it does bring back memories. and memories, that's what makes individuals unique. future actions are actually dependent on past events. while there may be better paths to thread upon, be grateful of what you have now. we're not the best, but we're not the worst off either. if you're feeling down, remember that there's always some hope out there, albeit little and tiny, and it's composed of different forms, be it music, picture, a single word, a person, and so on so forth. for me it's mostly music (i'm an audiophile) so yeah i hate noise and love it at the same time. something like wave-particle duality theory.
okay back to story, he's the gang of best friend in form4, along with wee ping, daniel etc etc (the etcs sound weird =p). yeah those were good times. fooled around too much but heck was it fun. first hour of the school day is still sleeping hour. and the funny mr. chua of additional maths. "siapa boleh berdiri? hanya aku saja yang boleh" wth lar hahaha.
and the scouts. damn were they having fun. again mom didn't allow me to go this time around. sigh. nothing can be done about that. but other than that i went to school today so saw them. ahh the nostalgia embraced me. and mocked me too dammit. either way i hope i can join them more. hopefully. music camp was down i heard, damn sad. please larrr... i so wanna go join them. boohoo. at least the place, the organization, the people there, everyone, everything, they gave my a sense of belonging. nostalgic stuff again. hehehe.
so yeah that's all. oh and i'm gonna update my lappie HDD to 160GB. hope it's worth it.
on other unrelated news, puberty was late.
and one girl went MIA. i sense some similarity between me and her. and makes me wonder whether those days were really our firsts... sigh i was a real failure back then; not that it's alot different from now. just wanna say sorry to the two girls that i've hurted so much.
long hair. hahaha i now have the longest hair i ever had in my whole life. gonna trim it abit at the saloon before reunion dinner next tuesday. and add abit of red highlighting to make it look, not to say cool, but at least the way i wanted it to be. now it's abit red cuz of previous black colour fading. come to think bout it, changing appearance does cost damn lot. just ask the girls, and some boys. also i so wanted an asian mullet. looks damn nice. like this one: http://www.oneinchpunch.net/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2007/09/asian-mullet.jpg hahaha.
and square enix (it was square soft back then), people who worked there, T.H.E.Y. A.R.E. G.O.D.
9.12.07
优
担忧的优。
担忧，操心等等，焉知祸福。也许是家庭背景的影响，我也渐渐得了轻微忧郁症。以前与你共度的那一段日子，那时我付出的那一份爱，为何现在还存在呢？
也许，那不是爱，而是操控。
嗯。
还有，顿号跑去哪儿啦？
担忧，操心等等，焉知祸福。也许是家庭背景的影响，我也渐渐得了轻微忧郁症。以前与你共度的那一段日子，那时我付出的那一份爱，为何现在还存在呢？
也许，那不是爱，而是操控。
嗯。
还有，顿号跑去哪儿啦？
2.12.07
wow
我想将对你的思念，寄予散落的星子，但愿那点点的星光能照进你的窗前，伴你好眠
幸福，对我而言，遥不可及。得之，我幸；不得，我命。
these thing came from a 13 year old kid. made me look real damn bad.
幸福，对我而言，遥不可及。得之，我幸；不得，我命。
these thing came from a 13 year old kid. made me look real damn bad.
1.12.07
mr. murphy
"Anything that can go wrong, will—at the worst possible moment"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murphy%27s_law
...and yeah so we all basically got massacred in MPSH2A that day.
oh and the holidays are NOT NOW, despite the festives and bonanzas and who knows what hoo-hoo going inside my murky mind now.
wake up biatch! final chionging to go~
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murphy%27s_law
...and yeah so we all basically got massacred in MPSH2A that day.
oh and the holidays are NOT NOW, despite the festives and bonanzas and who knows what hoo-hoo going inside my murky mind now.
wake up biatch! final chionging to go~
30.11.07
cyclic
arrrr thermodynamics tomorrow [today liao]... actually nowadays i feel a bit bad for not feeling anything before and after the exams. for fluid mechs, sensors actuators, ctw too. so yeah it's like tackling exams head on with a blank mind and trying my best and that's it. zero. nil. neh. nothing. no remorse, no joy, no nothing. weird.
makes me wonder whether all these are worth it, i mean like for future's sake. and then makes me ponder what about life that makes it so special that each and every one of us just keeps on hanging onto the line. stuffs like:
--could i possibly try harder and do better? not previously but in the future...
--am i wasting my parents resources by not trying hard enough?
--wth have i been doing this whole semester that is worth remembering?
--what is the exact definition of "worthiness"?
--etc etc...
hahaha to the age old question: what is the meaning of life? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meaning_of_life
read bout this quote from reader's digest, quite fun: "despite the ever-increasing cost of life, the demand for it never ceases to stop" =] how true is that?
hehehe so i guess i'll just sleep and wake up tomorrow just to see what other s***s life is serving for me. back to thermo then.
p/s: later 4.30pm can fly liao~ [actually the exam ends when you first step inside the exam hall, oh well...]
makes me wonder whether all these are worth it, i mean like for future's sake. and then makes me ponder what about life that makes it so special that each and every one of us just keeps on hanging onto the line. stuffs like:
--could i possibly try harder and do better? not previously but in the future...
--am i wasting my parents resources by not trying hard enough?
--wth have i been doing this whole semester that is worth remembering?
--what is the exact definition of "worthiness"?
--etc etc...
hahaha to the age old question: what is the meaning of life? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meaning_of_life
read bout this quote from reader's digest, quite fun: "despite the ever-increasing cost of life, the demand for it never ceases to stop" =] how true is that?
hehehe so i guess i'll just sleep and wake up tomorrow just to see what other s***s life is serving for me. back to thermo then.
p/s: later 4.30pm can fly liao~ [actually the exam ends when you first step inside the exam hall, oh well...]
29.11.07
psp
so wanted a psp. costs about RM800.00, but really, would i appreciate it, like, one day after that?
so maybe just this time, i'll let it slip by.
hmm... maybe only lar =p
p/s: bought the first ps2 for about RM2k. utter n00b move. s***
so maybe just this time, i'll let it slip by.
hmm... maybe only lar =p
p/s: bought the first ps2 for about RM2k. utter n00b move. s***
dis-care
...life's little surprise.
you may not know what you'll get tomorrow. and when you know it *poof* you'll be happiness+1
have a nice day peeps. oh and thanks lesley!
you may not know what you'll get tomorrow. and when you know it *poof* you'll be happiness+1
have a nice day peeps. oh and thanks lesley!
28.11.07
sad
ok. i'm sad. can't say i'm not. sigh...
it's true that something insignificant in the future remain so in the present. but at that very moment where it happened, it really mattered. doubt began to cloud the mind, and actions were blurred. and this is the boundary line between the true courage and utter cowardice.
and i'm supposed to admit defeat and embrace it for the sake of being whole again?
some people said that emotions are unnecessary baggages of life. i'd say it depends on the circumstances. sometimes emotions are positive, and we want them forever. once it goes sour we tend to want to repel it.
so yeah it all boils down to desirability, and in the root of that lies selfishness.
it's true that something insignificant in the future remain so in the present. but at that very moment where it happened, it really mattered. doubt began to cloud the mind, and actions were blurred. and this is the boundary line between the true courage and utter cowardice.
and i'm supposed to admit defeat and embrace it for the sake of being whole again?
some people said that emotions are unnecessary baggages of life. i'd say it depends on the circumstances. sometimes emotions are positive, and we want them forever. once it goes sour we tend to want to repel it.
so yeah it all boils down to desirability, and in the root of that lies selfishness.
assimilation
it seems that relationships, when broken, tend to govern that the involved party(ies) assimilate the characteristics of each other.
...so yeah how much weaker will i be in the end?
...so yeah how much weaker will i be in the end?
27.11.07
25.11.07
20.11.07
repetitive
4 years plus 4 months. that's how long it's been ya? it ended a long time ago but i'm still counting. dreamer i may be but it's probably because i subconsciously wanted it to continue...
...yeah, that explains also why i still regret things turn out this way.
by the way, i like this particular font that i'm using now. looks nice~
...yeah, that explains also why i still regret things turn out this way.
by the way, i like this particular font that i'm using now. looks nice~
18.11.07
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