sad

ok. i'm sad. can't say i'm not. sigh...

it's true that something insignificant in the future remain so in the present. but at that very moment where it happened, it really mattered. doubt began to cloud the mind, and actions were blurred. and this is the boundary line between the true courage and utter cowardice.

and i'm supposed to admit defeat and embrace it for the sake of being whole again?

some people said that emotions are unnecessary baggages of life. i'd say it depends on the circumstances. sometimes emotions are positive, and we want them forever. once it goes sour we tend to want to repel it.

so yeah it all boils down to desirability, and in the root of that lies selfishness.